Life Suckzzzz..........

As time goes by, I already lived for 27 years. Yeah, 27 years and it is neither long nor short. Come to think about it, what have I achieve in my life that make myself proud to be who am I. What have I done that makes me feel good to be myself. What have I accomplish that makes me feel like the king of the world. What sort of character or skill do I possess that other people might lack of? In fact, which day in my life should be my happiest day? Or probably the most important question of all, why am I here for?

On the other hand, if I have to tell a story about my unhappiness moment, it is a piece of cake. I can remember it very well, every inch every corner, no doubt about it. Moment of sadness, mistake, upset, fool, it's all clearly in my head. In fact, I can list a few too. How pathetic isnt it. People always say, "Forget the bitter moments, keep the sweet moments". For me, I kept both cause whenever I recall back either one, I felt pain in my heart, and I couldnt take it. It is so pain

I'm sure somebody going to tell me, "Nobody has a perfect life". Ya ya ya, I know that. But do I have to go through this again after 27 years? Will my life be better tomorrow? Why do I always have to contribute love and happiness to someone yet in the end received pain and hatred. Why life have to be hard for me when what I need is just a simple life with love and happiness. Is it really that difficult? Or I make it difficult for myself. I'm tired and I'm so tired.

Yes, I complained a lot. I am a very pessimistic person. In fact, I'm worse than that before. Nobody ever know what has happened to me, cause no one will understand accept myself. I managed to buckle up thanks to her. But in the end, I still have to stay at home suffered the pain and hatred. That is why I am still wondering and dreaming....................and that's my life................