Money & Career & Life = Contradict?

There are so many expectations for a graduate to think once they join the work life. Some will work hard for more money, to have a better life (that's why there are a lot of MLM company out there trying to lure jobless fresh graduates because there are easier to brain wash). Some will work hard for career (these group of graduates are willing to take lower pay just to learn and experience) and some just want to enjoy their life without much worries.

There are so much debates about this lately. It is worth to have a think about. Of course for those that already make up their mind, congratulation to you cause you know where is the direction you are heading to, but, have you ever think what is going to happen 5 or 10 years down the road? Do you have any backup plan in case your primary plan fuck up?

As everyone knows, without money, it is totally impossible for a person to survive in this world. We are talking about the basic necessary a person need such as food, accommodation, clothes and so on. Obviously for those who work hard for money, they might able to enjoy more than just a better life. Congratulation to them if they successful. But what happen to those that
fail? What is going to happen to them? What happen to the money that they fork out? And for those who are successful, have you plan yourself in 10 years time or more than that? Because of money, people become such a materialistic human being. No money No talk. What a shame to themselves.

I remembered went clubbing with a group of friends (nvr been to that club b4, so try it out lo, but the club changed name already la). It was Saturday night, as usual, packed with people. What happened was we ordered 2 buckets of beer instead of normal hard liquor as we do not feel like drinking much, just want to enjoy the music and the girls around (Quite weird though to drink beer). Most of the girls that we approached look down on us. The PR girls of the club do not bother to talk to us, even we called them few times. Is it because we drank beer? What the fuck.... is it wrong to drink beer? Nvrmind, we left early that nite and came back again next week. This time we ordered a bottle of Bombay Sapphire. And guess what, the girls smile at us happily, waiting for us to approach them. Some even approached us automatically. The
PR girls came back every 5 to 10 minutes to talk and dance with us. Imagine, how materialistic these people are. Too bad we are not that bad boy,=otherwise make them drunk and bring to hotel for ONS, hahahahhaha..................

How about career? What sort of career are these people looking for? Reaching the top position in an MNC company? But how are these people going to reach that position. Helping company earn millions every year, or get involved in politics, or maybe become a 'shoe polisher'? Obviously if a person manage to reach that position, he will get the fame and status. Every girls will approach him automatically. Everyone will look for him for business opportunity. Everyone will need your approval before certain thing can be done. Sounds terific, isnt it. Satisfaction guarantee. Why not satisfied on the bed, isnt it that will be good. Seriously, how many top position vacancies are available in the market? Do you think it is possible to accomodate billion of people that want to fulfill their ambition? Stop dreaming and return to the real world.

And finally, Life. Most people will live with this principle, 'To live a life without worries'. Indeed it is a good phrase. Everyone wish to have this kind of life, isnt it. Who dun want. Go to work on time and leave office on time. Got money go shopping, no money stay at home. Got money eat good food, no money eat maggie mee. Every month enough money to pay for car loan and
living expenses. Is this life really fun? What will going to happen in 5 years time? Age increases by one every year, but still want to remain in this kind of life?

I have been through all these 3 errmm... Ill call it category. When I graduated from college, my aim is to have a good career. To be the top management in one of the big company. That's why I took lower pay for few years cause I want to learn and get experience, so that I can be practical and sensible person. Few years down the road, I realized that I do not have the
capability to do it, and because of a girl that I falled in love, I switched to money. I want to have a better life for our future. I worked part time after my full time work. Managed to earn additional few thousands, so bought a condo. In fact I have planned everything for me and her, for our future. Im willing to work hard for money. Sadly speaking, we cant be together. All my plan shattered. And from that day onwards, I choose to live a life without worries. I no longer care my career or money. As long as enough to pay for my living expenses n house loan every month, that's it.

Sometimes I do asked myself, which direction am I suppose to go. What will happen to me in 5 years time. Seriously, I cant give myself an answer. It's blank in my brain. Is my brain mess up? As I had mentioned in my previous post "Career vs Life", I cant make up my mind and till now I still cant. Sometimes I dun even know who am I and what do I want.

I envy my friends that have good career, good pay, a lot of frens to hang out with, got good companion and family to stay with. While me, career hanging upside down, 'cukup makan' every month, friends scathered around, no gf and family far far away. Sigh, what a pathetic life isnt it. I guess somebody will tell me that everyone has their own problem, yeah yeah yeah....., I know that. The thing is no one will know what problem other people has more than their own problem. A colleague said I am a complicated person. I guess I should say I am a contradict person, right Jeff?

All I can do is Wondering & Dreaming.