Lost Interest

It seems like I longer have any interest in anything. Everytime whenever I'm in my room lying on the bed. I will ask myself, "What do I want to learn?" or "What am I interested in?". I can't think of anything that I feel like want to do. Not even one. I wonder, am I still a normal human being? Or I'm just plain lazy.

I used to like sports, games and adventures very much. During my secondary school time, I played a lot of sports, especially basketball. That is definately one of my favourite sport. Every evening, I will report myself on the basketball court near my house, without miss. Unless it was heavy rain or I am injured. All my "kaki" basketball friends will be there, playing, training, learning and most important of all, having fun with the sport that all of us are passion with. I used to be a 3-point shooter (shooting guard), than slowly to a play maker (point guard) before moving to a rebounder (power forward). To think about it, I was quite good at that time too. Those state or district players need to give some respect to me, hahahahha. Nowadays, I still like basketball, but I no longer have any friends that like to play basketball. Most of them retired. It is a team game, so how is it possible to play alone. That is why I am slowly retiring from basketball.

When come to games, I played a lot from Micro Genius, Sega and Nitendo generation to nowadays computer games. Playstation or XBox, I hardly touch it because it is super expensive. Although once in a while I still play computer games, but it wasn't as often as last time. Reason is simple, I do not have a proper computer. As you know, nowadays computer games require good graphic cards, powerful CPU and so on. And to buy those good parts at least few thousands. I don't have the money, so once or twice a week at cyber cafe with friends will kill my time.

Lastly I like adventure. I am a very adventurer person because I used to be a scout, and Im still a scout today. Scout activities mainly outdoor activity, so I used to go hiking, camping and jungle trekking a lot with my scout group. We will organize activities whenever the school holiday is coming. It was so much fun and challenging, like bring up the fire using 3 matches, marching under the hot sun, knotting and so forth. But now I lost interest. Probably because I do not have that group of friends that want to do such an activity anymore cause everyone find it troublesome and lazy.

I still played some sports today, like badminton, futsal, squash and bowling. I have to say futsal will my second favourite sport, but back to rule no. 1, it is a team game. Not enough player, how to play? So, I'm still looking for some other thing to do, to learn, to make use of my free time. Something that I can do it myself. But sadly speaking, I still havent found one. I thought of learning Japanese language. But it is just a minute hot. Join gym but realize that I do not like to sweat in an aircon room, get sick very easily. Watching movie, don't know why, no longer find it that enjoying. Hang out with friends, but most ppl busy with their own thing. I'm just so "sien" with my life. No wonder my life is so suckzzzzzz................

Sigh, seems like I can't find something to do. Probably somebody can suggest something to me? Otherwise I will stick with my not really that interesting activity yet it is the best thing to do, that is wondering and dreaming................................